多彩
It really would be wonderful
Sun
The sun is kissing my skin and the ocean wash my feet.
The wind making my hair to a mess and I'm able to smile of joy.
I love my life. Yeah, I love my life.
Beginning
Ah.. You feel it too?
Do you know how long I have waited for this?
I LIKE YOU! PLEASE, GO OUT WITH ME!
When the room becomes quiet
You have to face it.
Things never went as you wanted.
You never wanted this.
And I know it's fun to pretend. But you have to face it.
You got problems huge as mountains. But you never tell anyone about them. You smile, smile and happily tell everyone that you are okay.
But one day even you will drown in life. One day, your defence will pass away by a person who can se right through you. He will ask you whats wrong. And you will cry. You will cry and ask how he could se it. Your anxiety.
Useless zombie
But I'll be okay. Although I get irritated, I can control myself.
The break is over.
Time to go.
Today, I might post a teaser of my story I'm working with.
Bye~
I would never fix to be the bird in the cage.
My partner in life use to call me cat.
Emiko, you just like a cat! You do whatever you want and sometimes act weird in a cute way. You have a short temper and don’t give a damn about what other think about you – like if you’re god damn starving, you eat until you satisfied! Your body is very catlike and you can fall asleep right on the spot if you’re tired to death. You care about you looks and you like to boss around, and you know how to do it… You like to tees other and you know how to use your voice and eyes to get what you want. Sometimes you want to be by yourself and get mad if someone disturbs you.
Well... I’m sure that you were a cat in your life in the past.
I think these words are funny. And yes, I like cats a lot. No, that’s not really true. I love them! Just because the cat is a symbol for me, Emiko, will I use a picture of a cat in my header! I will use it for a while and when I get tired of it, I change the picture to something else that symbolizes me and then write a background story, just like this time!
Anyway - the time of the cat has come to Paperplan!
Enjoy!
The sun will always be shining behind the clouds
- No. I would never fuss around like that.
- Maah. But you know what. Joy and sorrow.
Will always, always come at the same time.
Never just joy. Never just sorrow.
Always both. So don't stop living because you meet sorrow.
- Oh .. Ha-ha, is this what they call 'out of the blue words'?
- No. These words are called truth. Believe me. Time to go back. I walk you home.
This is the start of something new
Never let go
I'm going through a period of thinking.
I've been thinking a lot the past few days.
I guess I reached a very important decision.
It feels both good and somewhat strange.
But now I am writing.
You know, the story I wrote about, remember?
I'm still working on it and that feels great.
Take care!
And together, we will fight for your freedom until the very end!
I just have to wait, cause soon...
I've reached my limit
And I guess I mean nothing for you,
Your pathetic moron!
I guess that everyone has their reasons
I guess that everyone has their reasons not to like rain.
Maybe someone crying,
maybe someone hoping for a change.
But not me.
No.
Not me.
The air becomes easier to breathe
and my mind slows down.
It is now I can stay calm and say
I feel great, yes, I feel really good and I'm satisfied with both myself and my life!
Her diamonds
This one is a very short story. And this is NOT the story I was writing about in the latest post. This one is just a random story I wrote after I read the manga; Kare wa tomodachi. The song comes from it and a few phrases to. Just so you know. I don’t own Kare wa tomodachi.
Her diamonds.
- Hey, where do you wanna go next? He ask and smile at me.
- Ehm... I..
Then we heard music.
- I like this song. He said and smiled again.
- Me too. I said and smiled back.
It wasn't a lie that I liked it. But something, I didn't know what... made my chest hurt. We followed the sound but I wished we never did.
- Hey, look its Takashi who sings. I didn't know he was this good!
Then I understood why I felt so much more pain than usual.
I can love you more tomorrow than today. My overflowing feelings won’t stop. I love you this much even now, but… I can’t put it into words. The days you gave me... the days that passed, the miracle that we walked together. Was our meeting a coincidence? Was it fate? I met you by chance. That is a miracle. I wanted to always be by your side. Arigatou* ah... It isn’t enough to say aishiteru*... Please just let me say this… I was very happy…
- Ha-ha, shouldn't be 'I AM' happy? He screwed the lyrics. He said with a big laugh.
I couldn’t answer… I was staring at the boy at the scene. I really couldn’t take my eyes off him. I couldn’t… take it anymore…
- Ey! Why are you crying?! He said and sounded desperate.
- I’m sorry... I whispered. Not sure who I said it to.
- Let’s get out of here! He said and took my arm.
- Are you making fun of me? He said whit an irritated voice.
- No! I’m not…
- Then why are you crying when you look at another boy? It makes me feel uneasy…
I didn’t answer him. But the silence didn’t last long…
- Oh... He said.
- I’m sorry… I told you that I’m not over him yet…
- I… I know. But you have chosen me now, right? Takashi is not good for you. You have me now! And you know that I love you! He said desperately.
He took me in his arms and kissed my forehead.
- You’ve got me now. He said again.
My tears started to fall, again. Every day whit him is fun. But I just can’t bring myself to lose the grip of my feelings towards Takashi. Even if… if it would be for the best, for both Takashi and me…
- I know. I said and hugged him. I won’t cry anymore.
- Good. Let’s go home. He said and smiled and took my hand.
Two broken hearts, one misunderstanding.
Will they ever find each other again?
* Aishiteru - I love you.
* Arigatou - Thank you.
